|Pride and Prejudice (1995) Simon Langton|
My birth family are above the average size, there's a father and a mother and a daughter and a son. So far so good, but there's also five additional daughters as well as one daughter that my mother carried and gave birth to -(that would be me). Instead of rasing the average 1,2 children--- the needed son and loving daughter my birth parents decided to raise a family of seven children. At the time it was still important for a man to recieve a son and for a wife to give birth to a male heir. My mother had failed to give birth to a son after six daughters and 15 years of marriage but the pressure as well as most apparent need meant that my parents still required a male heir. That is understandable and maybe even more so, once you learn my parents also were farmers among other things. But up until my birth my father had had a respected role in society with a wellpayed job.They could afford to raise their children until everything went bad...
The year I was born their affluent life changed to a difficult one with poverty, and today my birth family are still poor. Since they had added not one but six daughters to the family they could not (take advantange of the state's child support,(that first was implemented in the 1990s). Not only that but the family dynamics aren't what you normally expect to find---not in any family. My siblings are all grown by now with families of their own and yet my birth family still struggle with making ends meet, I am certain that they wouldn't be as well off as they are if one of my siblings hadn't decided to marry a wealthy foreigner. Had it not been for them, I think life for my birth siblings and parents might have been even worse. Everything has a price, and in order for my birth family to end or improve their financial situation one of my siblings had to find a wealthy spouse. This union was needed for their livelihood but with it the family dynamics changed.
Our parents have been forced to rely on their child and spouse-inlaw not only that but our remaining siblings has as well. Even the older ones, it's like the child has become the parent and the pupil exceeded its master. Maybe this explains why I am reluctant to look for love or refuse to accept a life where I'm not independent or in control of my own life. I absolutely fear to one day find myself in a situation where I would not be able to earn my own money. To be in a marriage where my supposed husband would be the sole contributor or main breadwinner with a couple of children as well.