Thursday, June 16, 2011

Adoptee Resliency

I was on the phone with my dear friend Ms. Marginalia a couple weeks ago.  She was lending a sympathetic and compassionate ear while I regaled her with my day.  My day?  My brakes locked up while I was driving and I was stressed about having to pay for the tow truck and repair.  I had to buy a new computer (more money I wasn't thrilled about spending) because the hard drive on my main computer suddenly fried.  What was worse about that was I lost most of the pictures from the first 7 weeks of my youngest son's life, as well as family photos, because I hadn't had a chance to back them up yet.  And while I was talking to her, my oldest son decided it would be fun to decorate our house with a magic marker.

And while she's listening to me pour out my heart about how bad my day has been, I realize how her day has been.  If she hadn't told me, I never would have realized that the friend listening to my woes had just severely broken her arm the day before (and is now in need of surgery).  If I hadn't already known, I never would have guessed that on top of being in pain and having a broken arm, that her tire had just gone flat and that some random woman had just been incredibly rude to her in the parking lot when she was trying to get her prescription.

Having a much worse day than I was, for sure, she still listened to me with care.  She moved about her day as you would expect a strong woman would.  An extraordinarily strong woman.  One who deals with the chronic health issues a rare blood disorder can bring, can have a load of misfortune pile upon her all at once in 24 hour time, and still have time to validate the feelings of her friend who isn't even having as nearly bad a day as she is.

Which makes me remember, I think there are a lot of people out there who assume that there are no complexities in adoption.  They assume that being adopted isn't a big deal and thus, when an adoptee says "hey yes, it is a big deal to me" and talks about how adoption has impacted their life, the adoptee just must not have anything else going on.  We must be weak because we find fault, problem, pain, complexity, ambiguity, whatever...with something so "insignificant" (so others may think) about adoption.

And on the contrary, the adopted women I know who share their ambiguity, their pain, and the complexities of being adopted with others are strong, resilient women.  They are not self-centered or self-loathing.  They are smart and compassionate.  They are there for you at a moment's notice on a bad day.  They do not talk about adoption because they want pity or because they have nothing else going on.  They have real lives and real struggles, some really tough ones, just like everyone else, on top of dealing with being an adoptee.  They talk about adoption to help and support others.

I wish surrounding society knew this about adoptee women.  We are strong women.

10 comments:

  1. As usual Amanda you nailed it. There is so much in life all of us as adoptees are dealing with and add adoption to the mix and we could easily spiral out of control without even a moments notice. We are not sharing out of sheer self-centeredness or self pity either. We realize that there are others out there who will read our experiences and our life stories being adopted and be lent not only support for their own situation, but some light will be shined on adoption for those that have little or no true understanding of it. None of us want anyone else to be subjected the to confusion, complication, and loss that adoption has created in our lives. So, we will continue to talk, share, and express ourselves...thanks Amanda for this forum to do so.

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  2. To each of you with the courage to write this blog so that others can read and learn: Thank you for sharing your strength and compassion with the world.

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  3. The writing and sharing of your stories does not only help other adoptees. You were all a huge part of my being able to come out of the adoption closet and fog; as well as a support to me in navigating through reunion with my son.

    I know your strength ~ and am thankful for it!

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  4. "I think there are a lot of people out there who assume that there are no complexities in adoption."

    I think sometimes people assume this because an adopted person isn't talking about adoption all the time. Instead, as you point out, of thinking that perhaps this adoptee has a life to live or just doesn't want to share their personal story, they presume there isn't one.

    Good on you guys for speaking out here.

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  5. "They do not talk about adoption because they want pity or because they have nothing else going on. They have real lives and real struggles, some really tough ones, just like everyone else, on top of dealing with being an adoptee. They talk about adoption to help and support others."

    You said it, sisterrrrr.

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  6. We all have busy lives with 1,000 things in the air at once and have to find ways to cope with tem. Sometimes adoption is THAT thing at the forefront; sometimes it is not. Talking about it and supporting each other is part of our strength, as you so aptly say.

    Thanks for being my rock. I will be yours anytime, and that woman in the parking lot was a bitch out of line. ;-)

    It's funny how my broken arm has significantly lowered my tolerance of bs; then again, that's probably a good thing. I spent fa too much time being "nice" and worrying about others when they didn't give a rat's ass about me. It's liberating to be centered in one's self (without being entirely selfish, of course).

    Love you!

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  7. And having one hand to type with makes me seem like the village idiot in terms of typos, but c'est la vie!

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  8. Any woman who can type in 'c'est la vie!' with a broken arm deserves a medal!! As indeed you all do for your survival skills, bsdetectors and the grace with which you carry it off.Love you all! Von

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  9. P.S. How ironic that I have been reduced to signing in as anonymous by the wonders of blogger!!Karma is at work again.Von

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